This
fanhood is recent and not devout. Please know that; it’s important that I be
honest, considering how many hardcore fans “Gilmore Girls” had when it was on
cable.
Back
then, long before streaming, I didn’t watch it, wasn’t a fan, especially not of
Rory’s entitlement, ‘cause she and I were just too different for me to relate, in addition to the fact that to a degree,
immaturity created and encouraged a self-absorption and a lack of thoughtful
patience that could have given me room to like her. I liked Lorelai better and
would have loved to make out with a younger clone of Luke.
The
four-part Netflix revival was a different experience. Everybody was older now.
I was compassionate about Rory’s lost, immature behavior and appropriately
uncomfortable at moments that struck me right in my own bullshit, which made me
feel better, because I could use those moments to remind myself of how much of
my authentic power, talent and maturity was waiting for my self-imposed
boundaries to be moved out of the way.
Huh.
I started that previous paragraph wanting to write about Lorelai and here I am.
Well. These days, I see a couple of things in the elder Gilmore girl that may
well reflect who I am now because, in a way, that character was a late bloomer
and I certainly (intentionally) have been one myself, which is a truth I used
to not voice aloud out of shame that I now would like to wear proudly, albeit
quietly, maybe wit a pin on my jean jacket that looks like a Pop Tart. I
haven’t planned it out yet.
As
a gift on my thirty-second birthday, I was given a ring that blatantly
resembles a blue Ring Pop candy. That’s the closest I get to Lorelai’s
Hello Kitty-themed waffle iron.